My New Reality

Picture this...Life as you know it has completely been flipped upside down!

Anyone who has ever had a newborn knows what I am talking about here.  Sleepless nights, puke stained clothes, days that just blend together.  So, you would think that because this is my third time around, I would not be so "surprised" by all of the life altering things that are going on.  But, how soon we forget how difficult and wonderful it can all be at the same time.

When we decided to have our third child, I knew that things were going to change.  After all, we were going from "man vs. man" now to "zone" play. (My DH is a coach so we tend to talk in coaching terms a lot!)  I had talked to friends that had ventured into having a third child and they told me that it was so much easier than the transition from having one child to two children...but I am still not convinced.  Many told me that because my other two children were older, it would be so much easier because they would be such great helpers.  Well, at week 6, the newness and excitement has worn off for them and all that seems to be left is the jealousy that I wrote about in the last blog and the occasional yearning to hold her if she seems like she will not pee, poop, puke or move while they hold her.

At the same time, this has been the most unbelievably wonderful time in my life.  I know that this will be my last child, so I am trying my best to savor every moment with her.  I hold her more than I should, talk to her more than I should at the wee hours of the morning, and just really try to capture all of the great moments that I can.  That is why I have ventured into this blog and have done the picture of the day!  Reality as I know it is...well...different.

Here are some of the things that part of my new reality:
1.  I change my clothes more than my 5 year old daughter these days.  Not because I just want a new cute outfit, but because I have been puked on again.

2.  I some times go to bed BEFORE my children so that I can get up in the middle of night and be somewhat coherent.

3.  I have colored my hair much darker.  It is supposed to be closer to my "natural" color (whatever that might be) so that I don't have to look at the horrible roots that I would have and know that I cannot possibly find time to go to the salon to get it colored.  We will see how long this lasts!

4.  I feel horrible guilt all day and all night long because I do not feel like I am giving enough to all of the children.

5.  My husband and I have not had a real conversation in about 6 weeks.  Our 12 year anniversary is this weekend...we will see if we get to celebrate or not.

6.  I feel a major sense of accomplishment if I get to shower and apply mascara in a day!!

7.  I was lucky to have heard all of the "Anthony Weiner" jokes on all of the late, late night comics shows!  My TV night really starts with Jimmy Fallon.

8.  I am much to concerned with everyone's bowl movements.

9.  Patience is something that I pray for more of every day.

10.  No matter how hard this is, how tired I am, how frustrated I may get...I would not change it for ANYTHING!!!  After all, who could resist that face up there!!